First day of school

We started the morning off strong with a donut bigger than Mazors head.

 

but then it was time for school..

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  I even made a sign for Tug, since it was his first day back too.

This was actually a backup plan in case Mazor would

 not cooperate but I love the way it turned out.

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 Before we got in the car to go to school, I was rushing, we were running late and

 I kept hurrying Mazor telling him it was time for school.

As I scooped him up and put him into his car seat buckling him like a speed demon,

 he looked at me trying hard not to poke out his big sad lip and softly said,

"..are the other kids going to hate me? "

Punch to the heart, I know.

It was then I turned from a strong, energetic, organized mom into a big mommy mush pile.

 

I walked with Maz to his class, and watched him timidly study each of the other

stranger kids while still holding on tight to my hand.

The teacher had me sign in, as another teacher showed Mazor his cubby.

We said goodbyes and they closed the door.

I stayed and watched Mazor through the long skinny window until

I heard a dinging kind of bell. (SO not the loud obnoxious bell I grew up with)

I realized I was the only one left in the hallway and class started.

(or they sounded the alarm that some psycho woman was peering in at children in the halls)

 I went and sat in my car in the parking lot. I didn't want to leave.

 I didn't want him to think I abandoned him there.

After talking to Tug for a min, I felt better and a little bit crazy.

 

 I didn't think I would be a mom that would get emotional when my kids go off to school,

especially now, I am getting used to saying goodbye to Mazor when he goes to his dads.

I didn't even really cry, but it was for sure an emotional day for me.

I cant believe how fast my boy is growing up. I am so proud you Mazor.