Feeling grateful

 

I thought I would mix it up today and share a little about myself and
since I am usually the one behind the camera, I thought I would attempt a few shots of myself too.

I really don't think anyone even reads this except my sister, but for those who do..

you may learn a little about me.

 

 

 If there is one thing I have learned about myself,

 its that I am just a normal, average, ordinary person. 

 

 My life so far has not turned out the way I imagined it would when I was younger,

 it has been so SO much more.

I am a mom to the most amazing kid on the planet. I know he was a gift to me.

 

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Some days are good and almost easy. Some days are hard and I feel like I am failing him.
 I will say, being a single mom has not been easy, physically or emotionally.

In the beginning, it was so easy to be angry all the time. I do still feel angry. I feel sad sometimes too.
 I understand that the feeling of sadness will never go away. I feel heart broken
when I see happy families with mommies and daddies together raising their young children.

I feel a hurt so deep in my heart to think of how Mazors life is now torn.

Sometimes the stabs of pain feel so physical, like I can actually feel my heart hurting.

I am trying to feel grateful in the midst of anger and hurt of my past and

 I hope to still have that family one day for my son.

 

                     I feel grateful for the love of my family & friends.

                                                     

                     I feel grateful to be his mother. 

                                                    

                     I feel grateful for the future.